The Grace Space
A podcast for the Sovereign Soul.
The Grace Space is a sanctuary for those who are awakening. In each episode, I explore what it means to reclaim your sovereignty, remember your origin, and live in coherence with your soul's blueprint. these are transmissions for the ones who feel the world unraveling -- and know it's time to come home.
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The Ascension Trap
In this powerful opening to a new arc on The Grace Space, I share a deeply personal revelation born of contact, communion, and questioning—one that reshaped my understanding of spirituality itself.
Fresh from the GSIC Conference in England, where I witnessed a flyover by the Galactic Federation of Worlds, I reflect on the evolving nature of disclosure—not as something granted to us by external authorities, but as an intimate unveiling of what we are finally ready to see.
This episode explores the seductive myth of ascension and the subtle architecture of empire embedded in many spiritual teachings. I unpack my own journey through the chakras, the pineal, and the high-frequency ladder I once climbed—and how I began to sense that it wasn’t built for me.
What if the path we've been sold isn't the only path? What if integration—not ascension—is the true key to embodiment, wholeness, and sovereignty?
We’ll gently unravel:
- The confusion between false light and true frequency
- The co-opting of spiritual symbols for control
- Why the chakra system may not be what we think it is
- The deeper invitation to stay, root, and feel everything
This episode includes a guided practice to return to the true center of your being—the heart. If you’ve ever felt weary of climbing, or unsure why you still feel disconnected after “doing all the work,” this conversation is for you.
Come sit with me at the threshold where truth begins to whisper beneath the noise. Let’s remember what was never lost.
Want more? Read the blog post associated with this episode: The False Light Matrix: Reclaiming Your Soul's Integration
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Take a deep breath and remember there's a power breathing you. This is your space of sanity in an evolving world, where we learn about spiritual law and how to apply it to our lives in a way that is practical and life-changing. This is where we remember truth to make the world a better place, one person at a time. I'm Claire Lottier, inspirational speaker, teacher of the technology of transformation and a certified life mastery consultant and spiritual growth mentor. Welcome to the Grace Space. This episode marks the beginning of a new arc of deeper inquiry into what we've been told, what we've believed and what we're finally ready to see.
Speaker 1:I've recently returned from a trip to England. This was something I'd been looking forward to for months. I was there to attend JISC the Galactic Spiritual Informers Connection Conference and to meet some folks that I've only ever seen on Zoom or on YouTube. I was longing to come together with my people. I guess that is folks with whom I share a bonkers pavilion, if you know what I mean the latest timelines for disclosure, not in terms of what's granted to us by authorities such as the governments or the military, but in terms of our spiritual readiness as a collective to encompass and take in a whole new paradigm. I was looking forward to getting a feel from leaders in the field of disclosure for the temperature of human consciousness as it currently stands and to compare that with my own impressions, because disclosure isn't happening on a fixed external timeline imposed from without. It's more of a dance between truth and our own readiness to embrace it. I was looking forward to hearing personal stories from authentic physical contactees, that is, people who, from a young age often have had frequent physical contact with a variety of extraterrestrial intelligences, for better or for worse, and how those experiences fit into the bigger picture of what we're going through as a humanity. Now. There were two members of the secret space program one, a former participant in the 20 and back program that you will have heard of if you listen to my series of interviews with Morgan a few weeks back, and one of whom is an active military insider who remained masked throughout the weekend for his own protection and because he hasn't been given the permission yet to reveal his identity.
Speaker 1:We also heard presentations by archaeologists, historians and researchers that helped reframe human history by looking at real physical evidence in ancient structures that point to a very different story from the one we've been told about our past, who we are, where we came from and why we're here. And, of course, if you've been paying attention to the news, you've heard about these new discoveries under the pyramids, these massive pillars that go down 0.6 miles. I mean, you know, it's just really exciting. That was one of the topics that was lectured on, but by no means the only one. There were metal detectors, there were bag checks, there were bodyguards and there were 800 of us I don't know, I'm estimating filing into this quaint, lovely, old-timey jewel box theater that hasn't been updated since it was built in the Victorian era in a seaside town in Sussex. There was something kind of beautiful about hearing about all of this advanced technology we're talking about zero point energy, quantum physics and all of this stuff inside a lovely old Victorian theater. Quantum physics and all of this stuff inside a lovely old Victorian theater. It's a kind of a beautiful contradiction that I really enjoyed.
Speaker 1:What I was looking forward to the most, however, was the flyover that was promised, a flyover of extraterrestrial ships, of the Galactic Federation of Worlds. Yes, there is a Galactic Federation of Worlds. I know it sounds like Star Trek, I know it sounds made up, but it's not. And this is not to be confused with the Galactic Federation of Light which, despite its appealing name, has often been associated with distorted spiritual narratives and control agendas masquerading as benevolence. The Galactic Federation of Worlds, by contrast, represents a coalition of sovereign planetary and interstellar civilizations committed to organic evolution, autonomy and alignment with the source. The confusion between these two bodies is not accidental. It mirrors the broader hijacking of language and symbols in the spiritual realm, where the light itself can be co-opted as a mechanism of control or containment, or misleading. It's part of what I referred to in the past as the astral sideshow.
Speaker 1:True disclosure demands that we learn to discern not only what is revealed, but who is revealing it and why. One of the speakers at GSEC is a direct emissary of the Galactic Federation of Worlds and she's human, but she is an emissary and another is a military insider with close ties to the Federation, and it was the latter who was coordinating this flyover. And yes, it was by appointment. It was by appointment, it was promised and they built it up for months in advance, so they really had to deliver. Well, this is to show that these are not random contact experiences that are visited upon us, but coordinated efforts between benevolent off-planet forces in solidarity with humanity and our evolution organic evolution and people on the ground who are leaders in the disclosure movement. It's about transparency. We're not trying to hide anything or control the narrative. We're not asking for permission from deep state bodies or governments or military that have long been curating the narrative and controlling perception around disclosure, ufo technology, advanced civilizations, etc. We're organizing contact respectfully, responsibly and sharing those contact events publicly, openly. This was out on the beach in Eastbourne where anybody could walk by and did so. We're supporting disclosure on the people's terms, not in terms that protect those who have long hidden technologies that could have been and could be of tremendous benefit to the many, not just the few.
Speaker 1:Now, personally, I had never had a close encounter, although I've never required that to know what I know, and I've always known that we're not alone, nor have we ever been alone. Human history is replete with evidence of contact and off planet civilizations working with us, some of whom were very much on planet with us, sometimes for long periods of long periods of flourishing, which isn't to say that all contact with advanced civilizations has been for our good. Some of it has been imposition and interference, some of it has been downright imperial domination. This is what we're waking up from now, and part of my role is to build a bridge for the remembering among those who are ready to open up to a bigger cosmology and who have the courage to question unexamined assumptions about reality and sharpen their discernment. So I've never needed proof to know what I know, but nonetheless I was hungry for a sighting of ships, hungry to feel the presence of star family and friends. So I was excited and I had a stomach full of butterflies by the time we gathered by the sea under a clear blue sky miraculously clear. Not only because such days are at a premium in England, let's say, where it's often quite damp and overcast, with the green grass to prove it, but because the day before in London there were more particulate trails than I could count and a very active, aggressive spraying campaign that went on all day. The hazy veil spread out all over the sky, dimming the sun, as they announced they would, as if it were a new idea, not something that had been going on for many years for anyone who was eyes to see. I first started noticing these trails in 2010. But I'm sure it goes back even further. This widespread atmospheric manipulation is often carried out under the banner of I'm.
Speaker 1:I am not kidding Satan. That's the acronym s a t Stratospheric Aerosol, transport and Nucleation. Okay, it's a real thing. You can look it up. Look it up. I mean, this is a chilling acronym that reveals more than it conceals, if you ask me. The name itself reflects the inversion so common in control agendas a technological operation cloaked in benign scientific language, while carrying the energetic imprint of domination. The use of such a loaded acronym is a flagrant signal to those with eyes to see and ears to hear. It is not accidental, it is ritual, it is a spell cast openly in the sky, normalizing desecration as if it were progress, sanctifying domination as if it were science, inverting the sacred through acronyms, symbols and silence. And if you're thinking, dim the sun. That sounds like another conspiracy theory. Just check out the Guardian and the BBC. They reported on it only this month, may of 2025. So that was a little bit of a tangent, but with Satan so obviously breathing down our necks.
Speaker 1:The day before, I thanked my lucky stars that we had a clear night, hours away in Sussex, as I stared over the channel in the direction of France, where I'd come from, wondering where the ships would appear. It was late in the evening and the light was fading over the horizon. There was a silence in the crowd but also this feeling of anticipation, not the absence of sound but the presence of something vast and ancient. And then it appeared a craft hovering in stillness over the water some distance away. About 15 minutes it was there. I saw it kind of move in very slowly. And now let me just make sure that you guys understand. We know the difference between a plane flying over and something that is not a plane, the planes. You could see very clearly what the flight paths were on the left and the right planes, one after the other coming over from mainland Europe and then on the other side, going from England to mainland Europe. You could very clearly see those flight paths and all the planes that were on that path. This was something different. It was a different kind of light. It appeared off the horizon just spontaneously and it started to approach very slowly. And then it just stopped and hovered and it stayed there over the water, hanging for about 15 minutes before veiling itself and disappearing right before our eyes itself and disappearing right before our eyes. In the hours that followed we were treated to at least a dozen high altitude flyovers with characteristic movements that resemble play shifting speed, circling, blinking, playful, almost familiar and I took pictures. So if you want to see the pictures that I took, go on to the Instagram channel for the Grace Space Podcast. It's all there.
Speaker 1:So that moment, as I stood watching the sky, I felt something click into place inside me. First of all, I realized, oh, I've seen these ships before. I'd seen them over my house in France at three o'clock in the morning. Sometimes I would wake up for no reason and be drawn outside. I would walk around, you know, in the country, looking up at a sky full of amazing blinking stars, and then I would see these exact same kind of craft moving overhead and of course I just I didn't know what I was looking at. I told myself they were satellites head. And of course I, just I didn't know what I was looking at. I told myself they were satellites. But I've seen these things before.
Speaker 1:And standing there during this flyover, you know, which lasted for hours, I realized disclosure is not just about aliens or off-world civilizations. It's not the clickbait, you know. It's not about lights in the sky. It's about the nature of reality itself and the unveiling of what has been hidden from us, not just in the stars but in our own bodies and souls, what it is to be human and our place in this universe. And that unveiling leads directly into what I want to talk about today, because if there's one concept that has been distorted almost beyond recognition, especially in so called spiritual circles, it's the idea of ascension. Ascension, okay. You've heard me talk about ascension. For a long time. I myself use that word ascension. You can refer back to several episodes I created about the topic.
Speaker 1:I am a kundalini yoga teacher and I was trained in the practices of chakra activation, pineal decalcification, rising up the ladder toward enlightenment. I never studied a book about yoga in all my life, including ancient texts that go back 1000s of years, that didn't lay out the energy anatomy of the human in terms of chakras and kundalini and the almost worship of the pineal gland. The language of ascension is everywhere Raise your vibration, elevate your frequency, rise above density. I've said all these things myself. Activate higher chakras, leave the body behind. It was my language too At the time. I felt aligned with it. After all, don't we long to return to the light? Don't we yearn to merge with the source? But more recently, something felt off.
Speaker 1:About a year ago, I rededicated myself to an intensive practice of working with the pineal gland after attending a Joe Dispenza weekend in Switzerland with 4000 other people. It was off the hook and although I had followed his work for years and I was familiar with a lot of it thanks to my training in Kundalini Yoga, it was a powerful experience that re-energized my desire to free myself and I began to direct a lot of energy to the higher chakras and to use some intense pranayama in an attempt to blast off and leave this world behind. There was a shade of desperation to it. Actually, last year was a very challenging year of death and rebirth. Personally, and with the backdrop of world events and the turbulence and the malaise in the collective, I mean it was a lot. I don't have to tell you that anybody who's alive on the planet can feel it's very intense and it was also personally very intense for me and I guess the part of me that was still stuck in some conditioning to accomplish something through my spiritual practice got stimulated and tried to bust me out of this place, which just shows that it perceived it as a prison, both the body and the earth. I set up for intense practice, including setting my alarm for 2am so that I could take advantage of the hours when the pineal gland was most active and thinking to myself okay, this is it, I am out of here, I've got to be free. I've got to know I can leave this body consciously and it will.
Speaker 1:So I began this practice in earnest, and then I hit a massive wall of resistance that came not from my mind, but from my body. At first I thought I was being lazy. This is a pattern for me, right? I thought it was a resistance to going further than I'd ever gone before, a resistance to the threshold of death that we experience in these intense practices. But then I listened more deeply and I felt the still small voice of inner wisdom. That was like chill. This is not the way I felt exhausted, emptied. My body was craving sleep, so I slept and I dropped any expectation or pressure to pursue the practice that my mind had decided was what I needed to do to get there.
Speaker 1:And after a few weeks of glorious rest, I listened to where I naturally felt drawn to focus my attention, and that was my heart, not my head. I started to calm down, relax and stop doing anything, and I realized that my deeper knowing was drawing me towards something truly simple and real communion with my heart and real communion with my heart. I began to question and to contemplate the difference between these two paths and experiences and to wonder if I had taken basic assumptions about spiritual growth for granted and if the path might actually be way simpler and more gentle than I had ever imagined. I began to see through some revered teachings I had accepted without questioning, simply because they had always been there. It's hard to describe how this new awareness appeared. It just was suddenly there, an intuitive knowing that I was climbing a ladder, but the ladder wasn't mine. That I was following a map, but the cartographer may not have had my best interest at heart. That I was indeed ascending, but through the architecture of empire.
Speaker 1:All right, what's empire? Empire is not just a political or a historical concept. It's not just the bad guys in Star Wars. It is an energetic architecture, a system of domination that spans dimensions. Empire is the invisible hand that scripts the narratives, programs the symbols and builds the ladders that we are told will lead to our liberation. It exists wherever hierarchy is sacralized, wherever control is cloaked in the language of light and wherever separation from source is normalized through systems that promise reconnection. Empire includes religious institutions, educational systems, spiritual teachings and even healing modalities that subtly reinforce the idea that we've got to go out or up to find truth, rather than inward and downward into the roots of our being. It is the scaffolding of synthetic enlightenment designed to keep us climbing ever upward without ever arriving To name. It is to begin to unmask it and to reclaim the terrain of our own soul.
Speaker 1:Let's take, for example and I know that this is going to be confronting to a lot of people, but let's just look at this, let's just ask a question the chakra system. It is one of the most widely accepted models in spiritual development. I was trained on it and yet few question its origins. Where did it come from? Who introduced it into modern consciousness? Why does it direct energy upward in a linear fashion, reinforcing a subtle hierarchy of value from base to crown? And why is the heart, the fractal center, not the culmination but just another rung? Is it possible that this system is a fragmentation of our original wholeness, designed to siphon off energy and disintegrate us? I'm just asking.
Speaker 1:Well, let's consider how religious imagery, halos, upward pointing pyramids, rays of ascending light have been co-opted to encode a directional bias toward transcendence. Consider the massive proliferation of pineal symbols all across the spiritual and religious traditions pine cones, lotus flowers, the eye of Horus, the caduceus staff, even the Vatican's giant pine cone sculpture in the Cortile della Pina. These images allude to the pineal gland's role as a spiritual gateway or inner eye, a role that has been mystified, venerated and in some cases, and in some cases, manipulated. The consistency of this symbol across cultures and epics suggests a deeper knowing that was encoded and passed down. But the question remains has its meaning been preserved or has it been co-opted? We're clearly being directed there, to the head.
Speaker 1:But what about the heart? Empire thrives on this vertical model because it keeps us climbing with the heart as a mere pit stop on the way to a higher place, mere pit stop on the way to a higher place. It keeps us striving for the peak while disconnecting us from the ground, from the roots, from the earth. And because these maps of our energy anatomy are everywhere. Because I never saw anything else, because there seemed to be agreement across wide swaths of time and place that it's about chakras, it's about the pineal gland, it's about this force that moves up the spine. I never questioned that. It was the only way that's what I'm pointing to here that it seems to have been sold to us as the way, the only way. This is your path to enlightenment. This is the one and only path to enlightenment. And I started to realize wait a second, what if it's not the only path? What if we're just being funneled in that direction? And why? Because something about my experiences in that realm, while impressive, didn't feel genuine, didn't feel real, and I ended up feeling disconnected from the earth, my root.
Speaker 1:The earth is not just a planet. She is our living origin point, not just a planet. She is our living origin point, our mother, matrix I mean, that's what the word matrix comes from matris, mother and our evolutionary partner. But in Empire's cosmology she's too often portrayed as fallen, impure, something to escape or transcend. The earth herself is the embodiment of the divine feminine. And yet that role has been symbolically displaced onto the moon, a celestial body whose reflective, illusory light subtly distances us from the living intelligence of our true mother. This substitution has further contributed to the disconnection from our origin point. It redirects reverence away from the earth and toward a colder, more abstract feminine archetype. I know some of you don't want to hear this. We have strong feelings about the moon, and for good reason. Maybe we can address that at another time. My point for now is that empire runs deep, very deep, and its systems are way more ancient than we realize.
Speaker 1:The infiltration of empire into spiritual and religious life is not about integration, it is about fragmentation, and convolution makes things complicated, and when things are complicated you know you're not in the presence of truth, you are in the mind. You're not in the heart, you're stuck in the head. It was around this time of deep questioning that I encountered the work of George Cavassavasalis. George is an embodied teacher who has a relentless commitment to truth beyond dogma, which really attracted me to his community, and everything started to fall into place. He made a simple but profound distinction that recontextualized everything for me.
Speaker 1:Ascension is not the goal, integration is. Yes, we are in an ascension process, in that the spin rate of our atoms is literally increasing and we are becoming homoluminous, experienced by many as a heightened sensitivity, acceleration of time and a vibrational refinement of the body-mind, complex and, while not measurable in strictly Newtonian terms. Of course, the term ascension, as I've just described it, aligns with metaphysical understandings from quantum biology, plasma cosmology and subtle energy science. Many ancient traditions and modern spiritual frameworks suggest that we are transitioning from a carbon-based body to a crystalline or light-based body, that's, the aforementioned homo luminous. This brings to mind a powerful dream I had about five years ago, where a beautiful man descended from the sky and he softly landed in front of me and extended his hand and I took it, like to shake it, you know, and as our hands connected, he communicated one word to my mind crystalline. I felt this wave of energy pass through him to me, through our hands, and I woke up with a sense of awe and the feeling of a very real transmission of something having taken place.
Speaker 1:This isn't about mutation in the Darwinian sense, but about frequency, alignment and dimensional coherence. It means remembering our nature as beings of light, capable of anchoring more of our soul's light in the physical form. That's what ascension really is, but we need to clarify our terms with discernment. Ascension, as it's commonly taught, has become a subtle escape plan, a kind of cosmic bypass that appeals to our longing for freedom but often leads us further into the scaffolding of empire that I was just talking about. It promises liberation, but through pathways that subtly reinforce the very systems we seek to transcend. This escape plan is not just a personal inclination, but it's part of a broader narrative seeded by empire itself, a narrative that equates transcendence with departure and embodiment with entrapment. When I understood these subtle distinctions, it was clear to me that I had been kind of caught up in that myself, wanting to blast off and get out of here. Thus the term ascension can encourage disembodiment, leaving the earth behind, rising above the lower self in quotes, confusing density with heaviness and low vibration, rather than understanding it as a compression inherent in our fractal nature. And this is, by design, similar to confusing the Galactic Federation of Light with the Galactic Federation of Worlds. They seem like they must be the same, unless you are awake to underlying agendas of control that slip through the window once you close the door right.
Speaker 1:But integration integration as opposed to ascension, the way that it's commonly taught. Integration is the act of wholeness, of fully incarnating, of bringing spirit all the way into the body, into the trauma, into the ancestral wound, into the nervous system, into the cellular memory and staying. This is the practice of letting go of feeling, of allowing the energy of emotion to pass through and be processed. It is the deeper descent that precedes true emergence. And it's not glamorous, it's not flashy. There are no rainbow body certificates, there are no third eye light shows, and I've seen all of that stuff, I've been through all of that stuff. It is very impressive, but what I'm talking about here, integration, is real, it's organic, it's naturally yours, it's naturally yours. This is the moment I understood that the chakra system, the serpent fire, the pineal light beam, all of that had been overlaid, co-opted synthetic tracks laid over organic soil, and that I was climbing a scaffolding built by someone else. Not all ladders lead to heaven. Some are circuits.
Speaker 1:All right, if you're still with me, we're going to spend the rest of this episode diving into the subtle but critical difference between false light ascension and true soul integration. I will share what helped me make the shift and how you can begin to feel the difference, not in your mind, but in your bones. Let's start with what I mean by false light ascension. It often begins innocently enough, with a sincere desire to elevate, to improve, to transcend suffering. Many of us enter this path through wounds we don't yet understand. We seek the light because we feel trapped in darkness. We're told that the answer lies in rising above our density in aligning to the cosmos rather than descending into our own flesh. But this framing subtly perpetuates the very disconnection that we long to resolve. It suggests that density is the problem rather than a sacred part of our design. Listen, I have been here, I have said it myself.
Speaker 1:False light ascension operates on the premise that salvation lies elsewhere, and this is so baked into our worldview and perception and way of operating that sometimes we're in that and we don't even realize that we're in it. We're still looking up out beyond and we have this idea that we must climb a spiritual hierarchy, pass tests, reach levels or activate codes, like a video game. It sounds empowering, but it often results in dependency on systems, gurus and rituals that keep us seeking rather than embodying and built into. That is this sense of failure, like if we're not achieving something or we're not passing the test, that we feel guilty and ashamed. We feel bad about ourselves. So you see how it helps. You know we get caught up in this duality.
Speaker 1:In my early years of training intense training in Kundalini Yoga I really wrestled with this because we're inside a future oriented loop, always just out of reach. Many of us have found ourselves in these frustrating loops because we've been programmed to look without instead of within. You can go through a training program with a different mentality. You don't have to go through a program with an idea that you're climbing a ladder or that there's something to achieve or that you are trying to improve yourself, right? I've talked a lot about this myth of self-improvement as being part of the problem.
Speaker 1:True integration, on the other hand, is startlingly present. It does not promise escape, it invites depth. Integration begins with a radical willingness to stay, to be with what is to bring the soul's light, not above but down into the body, into the wound, into the shame, the grief, the rage, the memory. It is not linear, it is cyclical, spiral, cellular. It's a sacred involution that mirrors our evolution. Yeah, integration is about accepting radical acceptance of all the parts of ourself, right? It's dissolving all of the walls within ourselves and being willing to feel everything that we have suppressed or compartmentalized in the interest of integration. Integration asks us to reclaim the very parts of ourselves that empire taught us to bypass the belly, the blood, the bone, the breath. It reintroduces us to the earth, not as something we inhabit, but as someone we are and with whom we have an intimate relationship whose purpose is to facilitate our return to wholeness. We stop climbing and begin rooting. Rooting, we set roots down, we stop ascending into abstraction and began inhabiting form.
Speaker 1:Last year I had a distance healing session with a French healer who came highly recommended. We got on the phone and talked for a few minutes and then he said we'd hang up and he'd work on me for half an hour or so and call me back. Okay, so I laid down while he was doing whatever he does and I felt some energy moving around. When he called me back, he said your soul has been afraid to fully anchor. You've got a tendency to go up and out. I know you want to go back to where you came from, but your job is to stay here. Your only job right now is to accept incarnation on earth. Be human, get anchored. Go down, not up.
Speaker 1:Well, that wasn't really what I wanted to hear. It sounded pretty boring. Plus, I was all into my new practice of blowing up my pineal gland so that I could get the hell out of here. He chuckled Look, you don't need to practice that, it comes naturally to you. Kundalini yoga teacher. Of course you are. I'm not saying you're wrong, it makes sense. But decide do you want to stay or do you want to go? I have to tell you, that kind of rocked my world. I hadn't thought of it in those terms but faced with the choice, I had to admit that there had always been something in me that resisted incarnation.
Speaker 1:I flashed to a memory of being about four years old. I had a piece of hard candy in my mouth and laid down on the ground. For some stupid reason. It went down my throat naturally and I started to choke, but I just laid there. Suddenly I felt my father pick me up by the ankles and shake me upside down. The candy dislodged and I breathed again. But I remember my father's anger, barely keeping a lid on his terror. She didn't do anything to save herself. I heard him talking to my mother. She didn't sit up, she just laid there. Talking to my mother, she didn't sit up, she just laid there.
Speaker 1:The observer in me wondered idly at this death impulse at the time. But it wasn't a desire for annihilation so much as it was a craving for escape, maybe something we can all relate to. And it's this very craving for escape that makes us easy prey to distraction, addiction and the false light matrix, a synthetic spiritual architecture designed to mimic the path of liberation while actually reinforcing disempowerment and separation from source. If you are currently caught in a false light matrix, you may be feeling an inkling of what I'm talking about. You think you just have to work harder and do more, but you're actually feeling disempowered and separated. The false light matrix is seductive because it mimics what we long for most peace, purpose and a sense of belonging. It often presents itself in the form of beautiful teachings, ascended master narratives, high vibrational promises and encoded language that seems enlightened but subtly disempowers.
Speaker 1:This matrix is not made of darkness but of counterfeit light Illusions cloaked in radiance. It preys on our desperation for relief from suffering, offering a shining escape route from the grit of earthly life. And at first it feels good, kinder than the density we've known. But that comfort is what makes it dangerous. It soothes just enough to lull us into complacency to keep us floating, enough to lull us into complacency to keep us floating, disconnected from our own roots. So you know that's the. I don't know if you've met people who don't want to look at the dark side. You know it's like all love and light and you know negative emotions are frowned upon or you know, there's a disconnection, whereas we're actually here to embrace and embody all of it. All of it, the darkness, too. Discernment is the only compass here, because what is false does not announce itself. It flatters you into forgetting its empire in another form. I have to thank my experiences with mushrooms for insight into this world of counterfeit light On a couple of occasions, and I guess I should preface this by saying that I consciously decided to expand my consciousness using mushrooms, that over a period of about 18 months, I did five shamanic journeys on my own alone.
Speaker 1:I framed them all myself, with a lot of intention, and every time I went in I was, you know, like a cosmonaut of the interior spaces, and I I went in with an intention, something that I wanted to understand, and so this was a very careful, intentional process on my part. All right, this is. This is the experience that I had over a period of about a year and a half, and on a couple of occasions I found myself lulled by the bliss of these shimmering, fantastical dimensions, but something in my heart saw through it. It was unmistakably astral and seemed to go on forever, and there was one time I momentarily panicked. It felt like yet another trap. But at the time I didn't have enough expanded awareness to understand what I had sensed and I was still confusing those states of bliss with enlightenment. So these experiences with mushrooms were extremely valuable. They offered me insight.
Speaker 1:I went into the false light matrix, I saw it and I guess I had enough heart discernment to be able to feel a dissonance between that frequency and the frequency of truth within my heart. Enlightenment isn't always expansion. It can be softening, it can be inwardness, the quiet clarity that comes when we let go of striving. That realization didn't come in a lightning flash. It came in stillness, in surrender, in choosing to listen to the subtle language of my own body. You know your heart language, our intuition. It's not loud, it's not brash, it's not showy, it's not glamorous, it is very subtle, quiet. Listen to that wind out there.
Speaker 1:In my own experience, this shift that I experienced, this distinction, let's say, between false light matrix, blissfulness and subtle heart knowing, changed everything. I no longer measured my progress by peak states or out of body journeys. I began to feel a different kind of power, one that arose quietly from within. It was a power that didn't need proof or performance. It was just there, like the pulse of the earth beneath my feet, beneath my feet. Now let me be clear. The Kundalini path that I walked was not wrong, and if you're on that path or another yogic path, it is not wrong. It's really about developing discernment and being able to see a bigger picture and how all of these dots connect. Bigger picture and how all of these dots connect, and it's about your sovereignty.
Speaker 1:In the middle of all this, I still teach Kundalini Yoga and I still practice. I honor it. It's the way that I approach it now that has changed For many years. It gave me structure, devotion and a deepening into practice that shaped me profoundly. It's what brought me here, and, even though I now see overlays within it that I had never questioned before, questioning is not betrayal. In fact, it is the fruit of true discipleship to be so committed to the truth that you're willing to go beyond the form that first revealed it to you.
Speaker 1:I honor the lineage and the wisdom it carried to me, even as I recognize where that wisdom may have been entangled with systems of distortion, and I'm so grateful for how it has taught me discernment over the years. And I know that without it and without the great master who wielded it as a sword of truth in my life. I would not be here now discerning more deeply, walking more freely and offering this fresh perspective to you with love. So if you're finding yourself weary of climbing, if you followed all the steps and still feel disconnected or unfulfilled, you are not broken. You're awakening, you're remembering and your soul may be inviting you now not to ascend but to return to what is real, to what is whole, to what has always been waiting inside you. And that's really what disclosure is all about. To come back to my weekend in England Not just revealing what's hidden in the skies, it's about remembering what's been hidden within. True disclosure unveils not only the existence of off-planet civilizations or hidden technologies, but the buried knowing of who and what we really are.
Speaker 1:Integration is disclosure on a soul level. It is the remembering of our full spectrum light, the harmonizing of the sine wave that is the essence of light itself. Just as disclosure pulls back the veil on distorted narratives about our history, integration dissolves the inner distortions that have kept us fragmented. Both are acts of truth, one cosmic, one intimate and both are needed now. Now let's take a moment here for a brief integration practice, a chance to feel into the truth of what we've explored.
Speaker 1:And listen. I'm not suggesting that you believe in anything. I'm suggesting that you feel into this for yourself and trust the truth of your feeling. I'll guide you gently into the field of the heart. Close your eyes if you're able. Let your breath slow and deepen. Slow and deepen. Feel the weight of your body and let it be supported by the earth, by the floor, by the chair, whatever surface you're on. Let yourself drop softly into the Earth's embrace.
Speaker 1:Now bring your awareness to your heart, not the physical organ, but the center of your chest, the space where your soul breathes, your chest, the space where your soul breathes. Go deeper than the chakra, go behind your heart. With each inhale, allow light to gather in your heart, not a blinding distant light, a warm, embodied glow, like sunlight through leaves, like firelight in a dark room. With each exhale, release the tension of striving. Let go of the climb. With each exhale, release the tension of striving, let go of the climb.
Speaker 1:Inhale Presence, exhale Permission. Feel your heart as the true center, the axis of your being, your first I and if it feels right, silently affirm I choose to stay. I choose to stay, I choose to feel, I choose to integrate. Let the silence hold you for a moment. When you're ready, gently bring your awareness back, wiggle your fingers, toes, open your eyes. Integration doesn't happen in one moment. It happens in many small ones like this Each time you return to your body, each time you choose truth over transcendence, each time you honor the ground beneath your feet as holy. This is just the beginning.
Speaker 1:In the next episode of this arc, we'll explore the structure of reality itself, the crucible we're in and the three layers of imposition that have shaped our world. It'll give you a larger context for everything we've touched today. I know that this episode might have brought some uncomfortable ideas into your orbit, and if you're still here listening, I just want to say that I really appreciate you. I appreciate your openness and your willingness to listen, to consider something beyond what you might have considered before. I'll see you soon. Until then, take heart, stay grounded and walk in grace. Thank you for joining me in the grace space, where you're always in the right place. If you love this podcast, I invite you to subscribe to it and submit a review if you feel called to do so. Also, be sure to sign up for my newsletter using the link in the show notes. I look forward to spending this time with you again next week. Meanwhile, walk in grace.